She's owning her faith; engaging her own relationship with Jesus; making wise choices. After making a rather difficult decision recently, she posted her first blog entry.
Her courage and honesty amaze me. Thought I'd share her post here with unashamed pride and gratitude. Enjoy.
First off, I would like to say that when the idea of blogging first came out, I didn’t dig it. At all. It just seemed like an online diary I’d feel obligated to update on a regular basis. Now, with some stuff going on in my life, it seems strangely appealing. At the moment, it seems like a fabulous outlet for my emotions/feelings. One of my best friends has had one for quite some time and she’s an extremely inspiring person (and blogger), so I want to give this a shot! Seeing as it’s already 1:08, this probably will be a post on the shorter side, but I felt the sudden urge to get this going now!
Some big things have recently changed in my life. These changes are for the better and I know it, but at times I’m finding myself second-guessing the confidence I feel about these differences. Then I remember that I’m human, and it happens. Like any changes in life, I think they’re really weird at first and like anything weird and new, we push against it and shy away from the idea of anything comfortable changing. I’m fairly certain that breaking out of the comfortable mold we’ve fit into can be one of the scariest things we face in life. When you know a change needs to happen, I think it’s just a matter of finding the strength and courage in yourself to make it happen. And man, when you do, it’s terrifying…but you soon find out it’s fulfilling and renewing and right.
Changes pertaining to relationships can be particularly terrifying. A wise guy once said I don’t want a relationship that revolves around me. I want one that revolves around us doing what God wants for us, (Jason Miller). A famous concept around my church is that you have to find who you are and exactly who you are in Christ before you can have a Christ-centered, wholesome, real relationship with someone. Lately at GSM, we’ve been talking about how being connected to someone who doesn’t share your values, goals, ambitions, beliefs, etc. can be detrimental to you and those around you. Who I am in God is who I am. I’m not me because of someone else. I think I’m really understanding that finding our identity in God and not losing sight of that is at the center of loving Him, loving others, and loving ourselves. I feel like a dry sponge and I’m ready to soak up newfound ideas and rediscovered truth. A little cliche, but hey, it’s true. (:
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and i will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” -Jeremiah 29:11-13
I’m ready to trust and find renewal.
